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I don't know how long I will be keeping that up. It's a bit unsettling to be that, erm, exposed. It was an experiment with photoshop...oh, thank God for photoshop. ;)

Voting on S.3546

I got this in an email today:







To paraphrase Mark Twain: No supplements are safe when Congress is in session.



And that's even true of a lame duck Congress like the one that's now poised to sneak through a bill that can only have a negative impact on dietary supplement consumers.



Senate Bill 3546 is titled Dietary Supplement and Non-Prescription Drug Consumer Protection Act. But as any Congress watcher knows, the titles of bills are often quite deceptive. Consumer protection? If driving up supplement prices and narrowing the field of supplement choices is "protection," then, sure, this is a consumer protection act.



In a nutshell, S.3546 is intended to amend the Food, Drug and cosmetic Act, and would require supplement makers and manufacturers of over the counter drugs to report serious adverse events linked to the use of their products.



To begin with, this change would be yet another step toward regulating supplements the same way pharmaceuticals are regulated. In other words: A win for drug companies.



Secondly, S.3546 would create yet another level of bureaucracy and red tape, and the accompanying expenses would put additional financial burdens on supplement makers. This might drive some smaller companies out of business, while larger companies might be forced to increase prices to cover the additional expense.



What's most annoying about this bill is that it's completely unnecessary, because without it, consumers and their doctors will simply do what they already do: Report adverse events directly to the FDA.



I hope you'll take a moment to contact your state senators and ask them to vote NO on S.3546. You can find easy access to e-mail addresses and phone numbers for all senators and representatives on the web site Contacting the Congress, which you'll find here: visi.com/juan/congress/



To Your Good Health,



Jenny Thompson







So I wrote everyone I could in my state about it. I am a big advocate on natural health, though I do have to depend on some pharmaceuticals, unfortunately. I have tried to take myself off of the Inderal but it has my heart tricked into beating really fast if I don't take it, though I have cut back on it. The Xanax is take as needed. Oh I love that shit. Saved my life. But I have taken myself off of it on the steady basis, to as needed, and let me tell you, that is a hard one. But I did it, from about 9-12mgs. a day, to none. Viva me! =)







The letter I wrote, and urge you to write to yours, or we are screwed:



I am asking that you vote NO on S.3546. It would make it practically impossible, if passed, to be able to purchase supplements and vitamins at reasonable prices, and make smaller companies go out of business; therefore, we lose out on proper health benefits. We all know the pharmaceutical companies are trying to worm their way in completely and shut down the natural way of living. But much of it is destroying our health from the side effects, and many of us can't afford it anyway. Our best chances are preventative, and that would be with natural supplements.







Thank you for your time!



Sincerely,



Jamie



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Here is the link to find your representatives:



http://visi.com/juan/congress/

Tonight I performed the first attunement on Heidi Joy, aka imagesinwords. It went smoothly and turned out just fine. It is the first of several first level attunements she will get. I think we seem to both work best at night, so we got the attunement going around 12:50am, CST. It took 30 minutes, approx., which went rather fast, actually. For me, anyway, I don't know about her! haha....she had to sit and wait and do a few things to participate. I thought I had told her all that she would have to do, but forgot that little nugget. ha....next time she will know. ;)



I told her to watch for anything that may come to her while having the attunement. Spirit guides may come to her, animal spirit guides, etc., and she had at least one visitor, the archangel Raphael... the patron Saint of healing. So I thought that was very fitting for her and St. Raphael to be there with her.



When you "do" Reiki, you ask your guides and all that entails to come be with you, to help or to lend their hand. Perhaps to show themselves. =) That can be an excellent time for finding out who they are, if you can open yourself up and just "be", and that is what Heidi did. Yay for her! The moon is in Pisces and that makes it an excellent time for absorbing it all! We might want to do it again tomorrow, while the moon is still in Pisces. Then it goes to Aries, and that won't be as conductive.



Heidi is a perfect candidate for healing. She is on the cusp of Scorpio if I remember right. They can climb to great heights of success in all they aspire to be....or do. It gives them the drive and determination to succeed. I also believe that she is a natural at the healing, because of the Libra and Scorpio combination, caring about others and the intensity to follow her dreams.

From 97% at this level, to 86%. I don't think I will ever get past this. It reminds me of the clock at school that starts to go backwards as you watch it.



I feel like Eeyore.

I forgot to mention in this that I am the family matriarch.





Mom

Current mood: worried





Our car has been in such bad shape and barely running, and we didn't think we were going to be going to mom and dad's for Thanksgiving. But it is running enough that we are going to chance it. Danny, his uncle Vic and Vic's mechanic friend changed the O rings and so now we think the gas is no longer pooling on the engine. But it stranded us at Wal-Mart tonight, so we know it didn't fix the whole problem, and really, Danny had already told Vic that it wouldn't. Vic just said, "Now, you don't know that.". But yea, we both knew it wouldn't be that simple, because there are so many things going wrong on it. Even the heater stops working now, just out of the blue. That is fun in the winter. Just changed that out last winter.



I called mom to let her know we would be coming over, chancing it on Thursday, getting there as soon as we can that day. I had wanted to take it easy and get some sleep the night before if possible (we are day sleepers, after all--can't really change our sleeping habits one night), and then leave around 1pm the next day, avoiding all the hustle and bustle, and dad's orders to clean their house for great Aunt Ebbie and Great Uncle Carl's visit. Dad always has us cleaning their house and we don't even live there anymore. But we do, to help mom out. Dad is rarely there when we are there visiting (he is a truck driver), but he will call and bark orders from afar.



But I talked to mom a bit ago and she is not doing so well.



Those of you that know me know that I am very close to my mother. The past year or so, I have had to pull away a bit because of toxic emotional issues that come with family. Mom and I are best of friends, but her emotional issues from long ago, from her mother shaped and influenced me and became toxic to me as well. Since I am so close to my mother, her opinions mean so much, and her negative comments, bite hard into my fragile self esteem. I am strong, but when it comes to criticism, I become unraveled, especially with my mom.



But the past year, mom has not been doing so well. It is distressing and it feels out of control. We want her to move here, but dad won't give up the money to get her here. So she sits, out in the stix, with nobody around, 24 hours a day. No friends, nobody to talk to, nobody to look in on her...nobody....but us, 3 hours away. *sigh* It makes me very angry at my dad for not taking it more seriously and being so selfish. It was him that wanted to move to the country, and then he drives a truck all over the place, leaving her alone. She didn't mind him being gone, because they haven't gotten along in many, many years. I grew up with a lot of arguing around me, and I suppose that is why I don't feel safe now.



Mom has a tumor on one of her ovaries. She has a tumor on her good kidney. She has uncontrolled diabetes, uncontrolled hypothyroidism, barely controlled high blood pressure. She can barely get the energy to walk around the store now. She has been having chest pains and back pains lately. These are serious issues, and they are really getting to her. It is agonizing to watch, and is hard to accept that it's beyond my control.



She was scared tonight, and said she actually tried to talk to dad about retiring and staying there with her. She said that for her to have him be there with her, is really saying something, which I agree.



There is a little house for rent right down the street from us. But I bet he won't go for it. He is used to tending to his needs and wants. Sure he provides and always has, but personal, emotional needs of mom's has never been a priority.



I wrote him a letter a few weeks ago, practically begging him to bring her here, so that we could watch over her better. I told him how miserable she was out there. They talked, but he said something like, when they paid the house off, she could move over here. What about now though? I wrote him again tonight, saying she was not feeling well and was scared and reminded him of their earlier conversation of how she needed him there. I don't know if he will get the email though, since he is checking out of the hotel he was staying in, and driving home for Thanksgiving today, from New Mexico. Maybe he will check his email first. Hopefully.



**Ok, I just checked my email and this was his response: "got to go to work now. then headed for enid. keep your phone handy. talk at

you later".**



So now I feel we must go to her earlier than previously planned, and get there Wednesday night. It will be really, really hard on me, yet again, but she is my mom.



I have always had the thought in my head, that when my mom passes, I will have the peace of knowing that I did everything I possibly could, to make her happy. And I have worked at that, for most of my life, starting as a young teen, listening to her problems and being her rock, her shoulder. Course, then I developed anorexia, bulemia, obsessive compulsive disorder, panic disorder, borderline personality disorder, and depression. I didn't have support for me, really, though she thinks she was for me. Her high priority is to be a good mother and family.



I am so scared for my mom.

I saw this in Khay's journal and it hit home. I was like, "Yep, shit, I do that too! I bet people think all I do is bitch.".



But that isn't the case. Just saved for the lucky ones. :P



I wrote this to Khay.





""Unfortunately for you people, though, the only time I really make entries here is when I'm pissy about something."----



HAHA....I have thought about that too, and how bitchy I bet I appear to be, sometimes, or often. Ah....the power of an empty cyber journal page. It is a blank canvas for my inner thoughts, to vent about shit I stew about, or even just random thoughts floating in and out...."

I tend to go back and forth from here to myspace and back again. I take weekends off most of the time. An occasional message check. I get so tired of "talking" sometimes. Odd since I am Gemini, Communicator of the zodiac. Plus Aquarius in there and lots of Virgo. But I do get tired of it. I get tired of the, "Hi, howyadoin'?" 's. I really get tired of electronics, and have to sort of cleanse myself, my aura, so to speak, of the muck that leaves itself on me.



I am finishing up the Sylvia Browne book. Excellent book, The Other Side and Back.



I am certifying Imagesinwords in Reiki. I have sent her the first part of the course. ;) I hope she feels better soon. I have to attune her.



I need to post my chicken pictures! I know....but I can no longer preview thumbnails of my pictures on this pc, and so I have to click randomly around the time I think I took the pic, of the random year and month, date. This is rather difficult, since I have about 7,000 picture to sort through. But I have been able to do some of it. It's just a major pain in the ass.